New Year, New Me

2015.
A new year, a new me.
Yes, I did just say that and I mean it.

2015 is the year I turn 18 and turning 18 means I'll legally be an adult. And that terrifies me. I don't understand how so much time has passed since I was playing The Simpsons Hit and Run on my PS2 or acting out Harry Potter with my friends. It feels like yesterday that I was starting finishing primary school and starting grammar school. How has all this time passed? How am I almost an adult? Soon it won't be illegal for me to drink, there'll be no risk when going out to clubs, it will be normal and that's scary.

I'm scared for what everyone will except of me, I'll be the same person but I'll be 18 so I'll just sound older. It seems like there's a huge jump between 17 and 18 and I'm not ready to take that jump yet.

I think I'm most nervous about my 'career', now I'm young and foolish thinking I could be famous but when I'm 18, I don't know if I can be that way. I'll be expected to have a genuine career plan, I won't be able to just see what happens.

But back to the 'new me', I've decided that I'm going to stand up for myself and do what I want to do. I know everyone says it and I always say it but I mean it and I've already started. If someone is rude, I will call them out on it, I'm going to ask questions and make people squirm because I deserve the answers. I'm not going to stay quiet anymore! I'm not going to care what others think or say about me and if I do care, I'm going to try my hardest to hide it.

All I want is to be happy and hopefully this year will be my year.

I know that this post is a huge contradiction but it's how I feel so there you go!

Charis

PS all of my links are in my blogger profile so I'm not going to be putting them at the end of each post because I don't want to and can't really be bothered!

Comments

  1. Unknown2 January 2015 at 23:39

    I relate to this post so much! I turned 18 last year (therefore am 19 this year.) I felt a massive pressure to figure out what I want to do and where I want to study..! But I am living proof that its ok not to know.. I still do not know if I made the right choice..!
    All the best for 2015 xoxx
    life-as-i-liveit.blogspot.co.uk

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  2. Charis Saunders3 January 2015 at 00:05

    aw I'm glad! I think whatever you chose will be the right choice! and you too! Xx

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